reasons/excuses

I think the reason I don't write on here is because I know people will read it.
I have a thing about letting people know what I think, or what I feel. I'm not quite sure if it's a fear or a pet peeve, but I do know that I don't particularly like it. 


(actually, i'm pretty sure i know why i don't like it, but i won't share.) 


Another reason I think why I don't write much is because this blog acts like a one way street. And I don't like those very much either. (comments do not count). I can complain, rant, lecture, or spew sans restraints... but what would that bring me? nada! I guess the final line is, this blog doesn't do anything for me.  What I need, I think, is just friendship and love. I would rather talk to you. I would rather see you. I would rather share a cup of coffee boba with you. :P


Lastly, my arrogance prevents me from writing more. I don't want/need you to tell me what you think. I know what I feel and I've already thought it all through. I know what I'm doing. I know the consequences I will face. Yes, I can completely understand and see how that is extremely immature, but then you don't know me like I know me. You don't know my story, so in my mind, you don't have any authority over telling me what I should do. 


I apologize. 


I suck at this. but i'm trying.


I have no idea if this made any sense. =/

More "bad" things...

My car was broken in to on Wednesday... <__< 


Nothing was broken and only some quarters were taken.. 


Only bad part was that I had to clean it all up. UGH. lame-O. 


Also, on a random note, I was running to my car so i could repark it to a closer spot.... and I ended up getting into someone else's Toyota Camry. HAHAAA. 


awesome.

mid-mid-life crisis.

On another note, I'm back to square one. WHAT DO I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE?
It's the same questions over and over in my head, and i just want them to stoppppp.

ugh.

so much raiiiin in berkeley..! pretty... at times.

but no thanks. HELLOOOO LA.

dun dun dun.

I haven't written here in a while, and I apologize to my "readers"... <__< haha. you know who you are! 


Anywho, I just want to post on here to tell everyone to be careful!!! 

This year (of the dragon) has not had a lot of good news, so please take caution..! 


Here's a list: 
1. The gunshot/homicide in Berkeley across the street of where I was. See post below.
2. There were two Chinese restaurants I went to that, only DAYS after I visited, burned down/the kitchen exploded. O__o 
(NO. i dont think im cursed.)
3. My grandparents' upstairs neighbor's condo caught fire. The water the firefighters used had chemicals. They found asbestos in the roof.
(they're ok. just have to move somewhere for about 8 weeks)
4. My uncle had a minor myocardial infarction and has an infection in his lungs. (not to go into details, but it was a close call.). PS. don't tell anyone about this.... 


This all happened within the span of 2-3 months. There's more to it, but I can't post more since i would be violating the privacy of my friends. 


SO PLEASE BE CAREFUL!!! 


<3 <3 <3 

Psychiatrist

Maybe I should become a psychiatrist...

water

I'm not really sure what I'm doing. I feel like I've been PURPOSEFULLY and completely immersing myself in third-party shenanigans, things that have NOTHING to do with me, and have been neglecting my life.

I NEED TO FOCUS.

I've been watching movies a lot. Mostly ones I keep telling myself I have to see, like Reservoir Dogs (typical Quentin) and Memento (LOOOOVED it).



Also, I've been reading a lot. (Just got an e-version of The Emperor Of All Maladies. I'll start on it soon!) But right now, I'm reading 4 books at one time!

talk about not focusing.


wtf.

I think I've been very masterfully avoiding my future.

PS.how awesome is Harrison Ford? I can't believe I forgot how cool he is...

Hm.

i've been thinking.


And what I've come up with, or what I've become extremely interested in, is cancer. Interestingly enough, when I had decided on this path of medicine, I remember telling people (and myself) that I would most likely not go into something with sick people (ex: sports med or maybe dermatology) and I probably wouldn't go into something extremely depressing (like oncology). 


I'm not really sure what it is, but I've got a pretty good hunch. It was most likely the combination of one of my classes (biology of human cancer) and a movie or two involving cancer. This is still up in the air, but just thought I'd put it out there. 
Future-Me may want to look back through this blog and figure out WHY THE HELL I had chosen ONCOLOGY as my choice of medicine to study. hahaa. or maybe not. Future-Me may look back and think WOW I can't believe I wanted to do THAT for a short period of time... 


I heard the Emperor of Maladies is a REALLY good book... Maybe i'll head over to Barnes and Noble tomorrow and take a look. 

Citation

goddamnit.


I got a parking citation by class yesterday. :( $49.00!!


this particularly sucks since im keeping track of my expenses this month.
lame-o.

Stale Cereal?

I rarely ate cereal for breakfast because it took way too long to sit down and eat it. That and sleep always seemed more important. haha. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE cereal. I just rarely eat it.

Which leads me to my sad sad meal. 

I bought cereal because it's awesome and delectable. But because I rarely eat it... it has become stale... (i brought this box from LA)

UNlucky Charms. :( to the max!

But don't worry kids. The story has a happy ending. 

In my post-stale-depression.. I placed the opened box down on the floor. Two days later--> magic. IT'S NOT STALE anymore!!! 

Heaters. :) god i love them. 

New Hair!

Hi all,

Like it?


<-- I trimmed my hair about 3 inches so it looks the same from the back (in the pic it's in a ponytail) 


Anywho.. I know the middle of my bangs are a bit short... but i'm sure it'll grow back in a week or two...


IT'S SO DIFFERENT! no?? ^.^ 




PS. this is my room furnished...


PPS. my room is still messy so i haven't taken pictures to show you!

whoops

I keep forgetting to take pics of my place.. But also because it's already messy and I don't want you to see my clothes strewn EVERY where... -_____-


Anywho.. scary thing happened on Thursday.. I went out to dinner with godbro David and godsis Sunny, and we heard like.. 20+ gunshots... 


David and I didn't think much of it. We thought it was the chef cutting up BBQ ribs that just "happened" to be really loud.... But Sunny knew right away something was up.  <__<


Lo and behold, cops starting showing up left and right and the street was closed off. Someone in the building right next to our restaurant was shot. O_o (Shattuck and Emerson)


Here's a couple photos i snapped while we were there... 

The guy ended up dying. Reason unknown. Shooter not found. 

Turns out it was the first homicide in Berkeley of the year. :( 


This wasn't how I pictured the beginning of the Year of the Dragon.... 


Surprisingly, I was not and am not shaken up... I don't really know what's wrong with me. -___- 

permit acquired.

woot! I've finally got my permit. I shall officially "move in" tomorrow!! :D 


Also, I got a fridge finally, so I can actually go BUY FOOD. yum. (MILK).


Hmmm... also I had my first quiz in anatomy... and I officially don't like my teacher.  She spends so much time on showing us demos or tangible models and then she forgets to mention what we need to know and then she runs out of time to go through the whole lesson, leaving a lot for us to just read. to teach ourselves. UGH.


I'll take pictures tomorrow and if I can get some internet i'll post them up! nighty niiiight!

Chinese New Year

I just got back from doing Jing Tsan Tuo Ke and i am TIRED and COLD and WET. But it was worth it. :) 


I visualized a great new year. Doing stuff I've never tried. Discovering new things. Meeting new people.  YAY.


Also, I'll post pics of my new place when i get my parking permit. It's been such a hassle 'cause I had to change the registration of my car to my name and then I still have to go to City Hall with a copy of my lease!!! ARGHHH!!! And because I don't have my permit, I can't park at my new place.... -____- (between 10 am and 5pm)


Anywho. Organic Chemistry tomorrow. X__x


PS. Seriously contemplating getting a motorcycle. ^_____^

hm....

So far I've had Human Anatomy and Principles of Epidemiology. Both seem pretty cool. But Anatomy seems intense already. hahaha. D: FRACK. 

Anywho... I'm pretty sure I got on here to write something specific.. but I forgot. damn. 

OH WELLS. NEXT TIME!

PS. I believe I've already hit 4 POSTS. Robert, if you're reading this. START YOUR BLOG NOW. 

<3

Moved in my stuff! (but not ME yet)

My aunt and uncle came over yesterday and I officially have my bed and desk! :D yay.


Tomorrow I MUST start unpacking!!! Oh, and I'll probably do a practice run to class to see how long it takes. I hope i don't get lost. -____-;; 


On a side note.... outside my window...  at my new place... there's a big web.. and a HUGE ASS spider in the middle.

T__________T please save me.

my new place!

my future abode. (My aunt/uncle haven't brought up my furniture yet, so I'm still in temple.)

My door and room number... Pi.... heehee. 

When you first walk in, dun-dun-dun-DUN: 

There's a desk and chair in here already! woot. But the desk is too small, so they'll take that away. 
But YAY FOR FREE CHAIR! (sucks there's a wall right when you walk in, but I'll Feng Shui the place with a mirror. woot)


Here's the view when you first walk in!

And here's a pic from the other corner. :) 

Also, here's the view when I'm IN the closet. I really like that it's a corner room, on the top floor, and has high ceilings with lots of natural light.  

I'M EXCITED TO DECORATE. :D 

One more resolution.

I'll post more later, but I wanted to write this down before I forgot.
16. I want to be able to do the splits


fuck. this is going to hurt.

The start of a new year

A new chapter has started. I'm a little wary as to how it will turn out, but I am sure i won't be disappointed. I think regardless of how good or bad it is, I will learn something new and will be one step closer to knowing what i want to do with my life. *phew*!!!


So far, I've been living at my temple and things have been wonderful. All the temple "kids" have been here for winter break and I got to see (almost) everybody!!! ^___^

I wish we could have spent more time together, and possibly done more exciting things, but really, I don't care. I got to see everyone and get a TINY bit closer. So for that, I am grateful. :)

Also, I've already found a place to live! It's $660 a month, all utilities (except internet) are included, and there seem to be a nice group of people that are included in the package. hahaaa. The house itself has 44 rooms total so there are lots of possible friends to be made. woot. 
Also, I was thinking along the lines of since my classes are at night and because I will be volunteering/working in the day, I won't be able to meet many people very easily. HENCE, this plan to live with a bunch of students! Hopefully I won't be considered a weirdo to ALL of them. <__<


Anywho, this may be a bit late, but I've also decided on a few random resolutions for the year: 
1. Be more extroverted. Go out more. Meet more people.
2. Keep old friends close. Call someone every week and talk for more than 10 minutes at a time. 
3. Find a way to save up some money, and plan a trip somewhere sometime during the year. Maybe visit family (my sister) or a friend far away. 
4. Control how much I eat and exercise on a regular basis. At least 3 times a week for 30 minutes or more. 
5. Visit the city. SF. Explore. 
6. Go to the Monterey Bay Aquarium.
7. Paint something for someone. (If I can. More than one for more than one person.)
8. Watch less TV. 
9. Watch less movies. 
10. Read more. 
11. Paint/draw more.
12. Reach out to people more. 
13. Take more photos. Remember these times. They won't happen again. EVER. 
14. Take more risks. 
15. Tell the people in my life how much I love them. People can never be told that too often. 


<__< that was a lot more than i had anticipated. Hopefully I can do/keep these resolutions. 
Wish me luck! 
I am looking forward to the new year!

Monterey, CA. January 2nd, 2011. Sunset. Visited with my Dad, aunt, uncle and cousin. :)